Last blog posting: 272.4 lbs
This week: 267.8 lbs
Total loss: 4.6 lbs
It's been a while since I last posted. I've been battling the yo-yo effect on the scale this past while and have found myself overly frustrated and stressed about the situation.
I have placed so much pressure on myself to get to my goal for NYC. I find the more I pressure myself, the worse I seem to do. When the scale jumps up 2 lbs, I get frustrated and start to wonder why I even bother. I get sloppy in counting points. I rebel by drinking less water and snacking more. I sabotage. As my target date creeps closer, I know my 20lb goal is not going to be realized. I was almost ready to give up. Almost.
I've tried really hard to focus on my success this time. I may not hit the 20lb weight loss goal, but I have steadily lost weight. When I went out with the girls, I chose to order the grilled chicken burger (no mayo, no bun) with double salad instead of fries. I ordered the diet soda rather than the alcoholic drink I used to order. When I went out with my husband, I ordered the salmon with double veggies. When I met my friend for coffee, I only ordered coffee. In the past I would have just said "this once I'll have a treat" and then suffered the consequences on the scale the next day. I think this shift in attitude is something to celebrate. I know this is the shift I need to turn this weight loss journey into a marathon instead of a sprint.
We leave for New York soon. I'm down 29lbs as of this morning so I can't really complain about the progress I've made. I know I'll be able to do more, see more, enjoy more. I'm also prepared to make better choices when we go because I'm aware of the thrill of doing what's good for my body. Best of all, I fit into most of those clothes I'd put into storage. I can't wait to go clothes shopping in the big apple!
