Pre NYC weight: 266.8 lbs (go me!)
post NYC weight: 276.5 lbs (booo)
weight today: 278.6 lbs
It has been ages since I wrote last - since before New York in fact. To update a bit... I DID it my 30 lb weight loss goal the morning we left for NYC and I felt such a huge surge of accomplishment. That had me down to 266.8lbs.
While on vacation, I tried to watch my points but I did NOT drink my water. I found with the walking we were doing, it was difficult to find clean restrooms all the time so I purposely cut the water out. I tell ya, it bit me in the butt once we got home. The drinking at night didn't help either, but I'd hoped all the walking would balance things out.
Upon return, I weighed in at 276.5 and I've been hovering there ever since. I've spent most of the summer watching my foods during the week and losing weight (had made it back down to 268.4lbs) and then going out with friends on weekends and gaining it back.
This week was a whopper. I've been feeling a bit down and hugely disappointed with myself. I've been eating all the foods I know I shouldn't and I haven't been exercising in the ways I know I should. Had a few drinks with the girls on the weekend, and Monday morning hit me hard with a 278.6 lbs on the scale.
I've been beating myself up for the last 2 days and then I remembered this blog. Even though I know it isn't being read much, I also know it has helped me tremendously. I find writing here gives me some focus and accountability and it also shows me how far I've come this year. I know the scales don't necessarily show the weight loss I wanted, but I also know I'm learning and that's the most important thing right now.
So as I write this, I am embarking on my "phase 2" for 2010. I am now commited to making myself a priority again and to getting healthy. I have set some new goals and I am going to work hard to reach them. They're scary considering the poor job I did of this summer's weight loss plans, but I keep hearing I should do that which scares me.
Here goes:
In February, my family is planning a trip to Mexico or the Dominican with friends.
That gives me about 21 weeks to lose some weight, gain some confidence and get healthier so I can do the fun things we want to do.
Step 1 is to get under 250 lbs. Most excursions have under 250 lbs limits
Step 2 is to be in size 16-18. I'm in an average size 22-24 now.
Step 3 is to be able to run at least a km. Pre NYC I was running 30 second intervals.
Step 4 is to take a scuba course. I want to scuba badly, but was always too shy
So there's my scary list of goals for the coming months. I hope that in writing this blog, I'll feel encouraged enough to move forward with my weight loss and start to feel better about myself!
