Last week: 276.4 lbs
This week: 272.4 lbs
total loss: 4 lbs
I was thinking a lot this week about how I approach weight loss. This week was a great weight loss week for me and I was thrilled. BUT...(and there always seems to be one) I keep worrying about when the bottom is going to fall out of the weight loss and I'll just get on the scale day after day and see no movement. I still close my eyes each morning when I get on the scale. I still think I'm not going to lose a pound, even when I'm doing the work to get me there.
I've spent so much time looking back at my failures and letting myself become defined by those instances. It seems so natural to remember the failures instead of the successes. Why can't I just be proud of where I'm at today and what I'm doing to become a better person... TODAY.
I think this time around, I've approached weight loss in the same way an alcoholic does a 12 step program. I worry about today. I look at what I can do today to succeed and I try not to get ahead of myself. If I think of ALL the weight I want to lose, the 2 lb goal for the week looks - for lack of a better word - weak.
I know I need to start being my best cheerleader. I need to move forward knowing I'm doing everything I can to be successful and take pride in who I am at any weight. This is not a goal I can set out to achieve and then check off some list. This is a challenge for me and it will be one that will follow me for life.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Getting back on the horse
Last week: 283.8
This week: 276.4
Loss this week: 7.4 lbs...
Last week was one of those "do over" weeks. I went away to the mountains two weekends ago with my girl's group. We spent the weekend eating and drinking and shopping and had a great time.... until I got home to my dreaded scale.
I knew the totals were going to be bad. I knew I had avoided looking at the points value of foods and I had alcohol each night, which is my Achilles heel. But to gain all that weight over one weekend!!!
On the Friday before I left, my weight was a glorious 276.4 lbs - which put me at an over 20 lb weight loss. To come home on the Monday with a 7.4 lb weight gain was frustrating to say the least.
But.... I got back to work. I pulled out my Weight Watchers book and I refused to kick myself (too much) over my backslide and chose to just work the program. In the first day, I'd lost 3 lbs of water weight. The next day, another pound came off. Even over the weekend while we had family over for my husband's birthday, a late Easter, and a very special family anniversary, I maintained my weight loss goals. To step on the scale this morning and know I was back on track was satisfying!
I don't know that I'll hit my goal of losing another 15 lbs before New York, but I'm aiming for at least another 10 lbs down before we go. Once I'm done writing this, I'm going to go upstairs to my closet and pull out my "20 lbs down" box of clothing and I'm going to try things on! I am also pulling out my "seasonal" clothing box to see if my tshirts, tank tops, and capris fit yet. It will help me focus on what I need to do to get into them before my trip.
So.... over 20 lbs down now! It feels great to know I'm doing this with my health in mind and I'm already starting to focus on what my next goals might be after my NYC trip. I'm starting to believe in me again.
This week: 276.4
Loss this week: 7.4 lbs...
Last week was one of those "do over" weeks. I went away to the mountains two weekends ago with my girl's group. We spent the weekend eating and drinking and shopping and had a great time.... until I got home to my dreaded scale.
I knew the totals were going to be bad. I knew I had avoided looking at the points value of foods and I had alcohol each night, which is my Achilles heel. But to gain all that weight over one weekend!!!
On the Friday before I left, my weight was a glorious 276.4 lbs - which put me at an over 20 lb weight loss. To come home on the Monday with a 7.4 lb weight gain was frustrating to say the least.
But.... I got back to work. I pulled out my Weight Watchers book and I refused to kick myself (too much) over my backslide and chose to just work the program. In the first day, I'd lost 3 lbs of water weight. The next day, another pound came off. Even over the weekend while we had family over for my husband's birthday, a late Easter, and a very special family anniversary, I maintained my weight loss goals. To step on the scale this morning and know I was back on track was satisfying!
I don't know that I'll hit my goal of losing another 15 lbs before New York, but I'm aiming for at least another 10 lbs down before we go. Once I'm done writing this, I'm going to go upstairs to my closet and pull out my "20 lbs down" box of clothing and I'm going to try things on! I am also pulling out my "seasonal" clothing box to see if my tshirts, tank tops, and capris fit yet. It will help me focus on what I need to do to get into them before my trip.
So.... over 20 lbs down now! It feels great to know I'm doing this with my health in mind and I'm already starting to focus on what my next goals might be after my NYC trip. I'm starting to believe in me again.
Monday, April 5, 2010
And the weight continues to drop...
Last week: 279.6 lbs
This week: 277.8 lbs
Loss this week: 1.8 lbs
My weight loss this week was just .2lbs off from what I'd set as my goal. I have to be happy with it though because its still a weight loss instead of a gain! I am that much closer to the goal of being down 20 lbs for New York City.
I'm waking up to my issues with my body and with food. I really noticed this week that I struggle with feeling food is the enemy. We went out to eat for our wedding anniversary on Friday night and I brought my Weight Watchers points book. I was upset when the meal I wanted (steak and side salad) would be 12 points. I had the points free and wasn't going over in any way, but I still panicked. My husband sat there in shock because I was making a healthy choice but still feeling guilty about it. We went for ice cream with the kids after and I had such a tough time. I still had enough points for a frozen yogurt but felt like I was cheating because I was eating something I enjoyed. When did enjoying food become a guilty sin? Again, something I need to explore a little more deeply, but maybe not today.
As my husband and I plan in more detail for our trip to New York City, we have started to discuss the things we want to do and see. The Statue of Liberty tour came up in our plans last night and I did a little research. You can actually climb up to lady liberty's crown. All 354 steps.
Yup, you guessed it, a new goal for me. If 6 flights of steps at the Empire State Building was a challenging goal, this one is even more of a challenge to work towards. I don't know if I'll be ready for it, but it gives me something to focus on!
I've been timing myself and doing 5 minutes of steps a day. I manage an average of 150 steps in that time and am gasping for breath at the end. I think I'm going to change it to timing how long it will take to do 355 steps and see if this is even a manageable goal. Here's to another week!
This week: 277.8 lbs
Loss this week: 1.8 lbs
My weight loss this week was just .2lbs off from what I'd set as my goal. I have to be happy with it though because its still a weight loss instead of a gain! I am that much closer to the goal of being down 20 lbs for New York City.
I'm waking up to my issues with my body and with food. I really noticed this week that I struggle with feeling food is the enemy. We went out to eat for our wedding anniversary on Friday night and I brought my Weight Watchers points book. I was upset when the meal I wanted (steak and side salad) would be 12 points. I had the points free and wasn't going over in any way, but I still panicked. My husband sat there in shock because I was making a healthy choice but still feeling guilty about it. We went for ice cream with the kids after and I had such a tough time. I still had enough points for a frozen yogurt but felt like I was cheating because I was eating something I enjoyed. When did enjoying food become a guilty sin? Again, something I need to explore a little more deeply, but maybe not today.
As my husband and I plan in more detail for our trip to New York City, we have started to discuss the things we want to do and see. The Statue of Liberty tour came up in our plans last night and I did a little research. You can actually climb up to lady liberty's crown. All 354 steps.
Yup, you guessed it, a new goal for me. If 6 flights of steps at the Empire State Building was a challenging goal, this one is even more of a challenge to work towards. I don't know if I'll be ready for it, but it gives me something to focus on!
I've been timing myself and doing 5 minutes of steps a day. I manage an average of 150 steps in that time and am gasping for breath at the end. I think I'm going to change it to timing how long it will take to do 355 steps and see if this is even a manageable goal. Here's to another week!
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