Moving forward

Last week:  276.4 lbs
This week:  272.4 lbs
total loss:  4 lbs

I was thinking a lot this week about how I approach weight loss.  This week was a great weight loss week for me and I was thrilled.  BUT...(and there always seems to be one) I keep worrying about when the bottom is going to fall out of the weight loss and I'll just get on the scale day after day and see no movement.  I still close my eyes each morning when I get on the scale.  I still think I'm not going to lose a pound, even when I'm doing the work to get me there. 

I've spent so much time looking back at my failures and letting myself become defined by those instances.  It seems so natural to remember the failures instead of the successes.  Why can't I just be proud of where I'm at today and what I'm doing to become a better person... TODAY. 

I think this time around, I've approached weight loss in the same way an alcoholic does a 12 step program.  I worry about today.  I look at what I can do today to succeed and I try not to get ahead of myself.  If I think of ALL the weight I want to lose, the 2 lb goal for the week looks - for lack of a better word - weak.

I know I need to start being my best cheerleader.  I need to move forward knowing I'm doing everything I can to be successful and take pride in who I am at any weight.  This is not a goal I can set out to achieve and then check off some list.  This is a challenge for me and it will be one that will follow me for life.