Exercise challenge

Last week: 287.2
This week: 283.4

Ok, so last week was a bad week for me. I am trying to come to terms with my emotional eating and realize there's still a lot of work I need to do in this area. When I am upset or stressed, I turn to food. I know I need to find healthier outlets for my emotions, but fear holds me back. I'm always so conscious of how other people will react to me exercising.

I've been laughed at and ridiculed so many times in the past that I can't even exercise in front of my husband. He is the most supportive man in the world, yet I can't seem to lose the fear of being put down. Obviously there's still a lot I need to work on.

My husband and I booked our trip to New York City last week, and this has given me a fresh goal to work towards. My goal is to lose 20 lbs in the next 9 weeks. I want to feel a little less mortified on the plane ride there and back. I want to climb those steps at the Empire State Building without dying. I want to be able to spend the day sightseeing without feeling like I've got a lead weight tied to my butt. Most of all, I want to shop at the biggest Macy's store ever and be able to find clothes that fit. To lose 20 lbs will get me close to the weight I was when we went to NYC 2 years ago.

I lost most of the weight I gained last week, weighing in at 283.4 lbs at the beginning of the week. I've been going through the battle of the hormones this week, so even though I'd hoped for more weight loss, I'm happy with what I've got.

My focus this week has been on exercise. I've been doing timed intervals on my stepper (2-5 minutes at a time) and finally got on my treadmill again yesterday. I did 20 minutes to start off and I'm hoping to increase both time and intensity as the weeks go by. I find it challenging to do full workouts with my kids around so I notice I do little spurts in the hopes it will all add up to a big amount of calories burned in the end. New York City is sure the incentive I needed to push forward!